"You’re under no obligation to be the same person you were five minutes ago."
I'm Farah :)
You may know me better for my Enchanting Encounters blog. This is my personal one. Happy tumblring!
The summer has been so good so far.
On Sunday, we woke up early and went horseback riding along the most beautiful trail I’ve ever seen. The weather was perfect— the sun was out, partly cloudy, and perfectly breezy. I learned to let go. My horse, Steel, was the most incredible horse I could imagine. He was just like me— he liked to eat a lot, had a fierce but friendly energy, and needed a push every once in a while to remind him that there were better things ahead. When I was riding, it felt like it was just me and him. I combed his already perfect hair with my fingers and felt his muscles as he walked. I can’t think of things that were more beautiful than that. I felt emotionally attached to him when it was time to go an hour and a half later. I spent some time with him after I got off and tied him back to his spot. I stroked his hair and spoke to him and, when he looked at me, I looked into his eyes and I felt like he could feel me too.
On our way to Skyline Drive we made sandwiches in the car and laughed and talked about everything. We picked up two more people and one of them had a smile that lit up the world and never disappeared. We stopped many times on our way up to take pictures and admire the view and the skyline was breathtaking. There is so much warmth in being wrapped in a sweater, cold, and admiring a beautiful view.
Eventually we got back into the car and headed to my friend’s family house out in the middle of nowhere to drop off her siblings. And the best thing about the middle of nowhere is that, as soon as the sun sets, the stars come out. All of them. I forgot about the rest of the world and laid on the pavement of her driveway and channeled the energy of the universe over and over again as it repeatedly took my breath away and reminded me how to breathe.
That was it on Sunday. That was all I ever needed. I forgot about my phone and the like, I forgot about all of the little, unimportant things that have a way of draining your happiness, if you let them, and I just can’t explain how incredible it all felt.
My dreams were lovely that night.
On Monday I woke up early to go meet up with Soos and cheer her on before her last final. It’s funny how you don’t feel your exhaustion when you’re with the people that you love.
Later that night I had a graduation dinner for three of my friends who are graduating this week at an upscale restaurant close to campus. It was lovely to get dressed up and have a dimly lit dinner with friends who you can laugh with.
Tuesday consisted of shopping with Baba to the point of collapsing in the car afterwards and me saying “Shop ‘til you drop, right?” and Baba replying with “Shop ‘til you die”. We finally found him a nice pair of denims though :)
Later that night Sarah came home and we squeaked about how much we missed each other. I remembered the surprise I got for us two weeks prior at the perfect moment and pulled out a bag of Now&Laters that I had saved for us until after finals were over. We ripped the bag open and dumped them out on my bed and talked about life as we unwrapped each one and put them in our mouths. We finally got to fall asleep next to each other, watching Friends, just like we wanted to every night of the semester. I woke up every couple of hours and smiled because we were still next to each other.
I had more lovely dreams that night.
Wednesday morning was a trip to the DMV to renew my license, a few other errands and a bit more shopping. Baba took me to the barber with him and I realized that I still don’t know why I love watching him get his hair cut so much. I gave him his first kiss since his new hair cut and told him I loved it. Truth is, I loved him, so really, no matter what his hair looked like he was always the most handsome man in the world to me.
I made a delicious dinner out of my leftovers from two nights before and I surprised myself with the tastiness of it all.
And now, well, now here I am. Writing, reading, thinking about the summer that is to come. I just got my acceptance to be on the DC team for the 2013 Solar Decathlon today, we leave for my family vacation to Mexico on Monday, two weeks later is my Volunteer abroad trip to the Orphanage, an early Ramadan, so many incredible books to read, movies to watch, adventures to go on, friends to see, places to go, people to meet… I can’t help but coming back to this constant feeling of appreciation for everything. I thought about it today— I’m literally the most blessed girl in the world. Alhamdulilah.
|me:||I'm going to bed early tonight.|
|me:||is that the sun|
Sometimes you don’t realize how much you missed the summer
until you find it on your lips.
I want to lie in the grass and get lost in the clouds
and maybe it’ll just start raining on us and we’ll close our eyes and let it.
You know how you have those moments of impulsivity and forgo all logic and instinct to invite a person back into your life because they provide you temporary feelings of elation and euphoria, just to crash in a predictable and inevitable reality of despair and disappointment?
Don’t do that to yourself.
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